Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I Hate

i woke up this morning feeling like wanting to throw everything into the drain. i felt like it's worth nothing of my time, my efforts, or any bit of me. i felt that same feeling when i was breaking someone else's dreams. as if it's happening again. that strong determination. the coldness. the unwavering emotion of wanting to give it all up because it feels so wrong. how can it happen that i feel such sudden wave when just few days ago i was feeling sure i want it? i was pretty sure i wanted it. how can you wake up one morning and realize you don't want what you were so into building for the last working months of your life? how do you want to want to throw it all away when you know it's everything for somebody else? tragic. i know, or maybe i know, that tomorrow, later, or few days from now, this will all again change. i'll again want it like i used to. or want it even more. but why does this have to happen? why do i have to suddenly change my mind, then wanting to turn the tables up so fast? how can i manage to be so unfair? to be so unkind. to not think of nothing or no one but myself. to just be so damn selfish.

4 comments:

eryLL said...

sherry burahin mo comment mo. please.. haha. ung 'come in....' mong song nakakairita tlga!!!!!

SHERRY PINEDA said...

kpakyalam mo no eryll?? edi wag kang bumisita dto pra d mo marinig! kprblema mo. haha. ano pang buburahin ko e tnanggal mo na??

eryLL said...

wa. natanggal ko na xa! pero as in nakakairita tlga! bawat visit ko blog mo pinopause ko pa.. rrrr... panu maglagay ng counter??

SHERRY PINEDA said...

nkashuffle na nga e! pknggan mo kse, mganda nman e. nainggit ka sa counter ko no?? wahaha! kuha ka lng sa mga websites. hanap ka. kht san nman meron tpos copy-paste na lng nun ung code.

 
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